Bay (faye_naruse) wrote,

[fic] Shatter (Junjou Romantica)

Title: Shatter
Universe: Junjou Romantica
Character(s)/Pairing(s): AkihikoHiroki (one-sided)
Fic Type: Drabble
Rating: PG
Word Count: 288
Alt. Link: FF.Net
A/N: I’ve had this idea in my head for a while now, but once I got around to actually typing it out…it turned out entirely different from what I had in mind. Not sure how I feel about that, but I hope you enjoy it nonetheless. Takes place before the events of Egoist.
Warning: First person POV, Hiroki. Angst. Shortness.
Summary: Hiroki has the cruelest of dreams.



There is no sun. Just the warmth of our bodies, our laughs. We hold each others’ hands tight, a single scarf wrapped around our necks. His other gloved hand is a shield against the fierce wind. We are on our way back home. To our home.

This is so natural for us. To love each other, simply enjoy the others’ presence. We're almost...surreal.

There’s this uneasiness in my stomach. Growing, festering, worrying me.

…But it isn’t the anxiousness that’s unsettling, I realize.

It’s the threat that my weakening cocoon of serenity is about to rip.

I look into his eyes; he stares right on back.

Everything shatters.

Suddenly, I’m on the outside watching in.

Just as my dark room begins to come into focus, my dream begins to fade. I struggle against the urge to fight, to bring it back, but the pain I feel is a cruel reminder. The dream was just that: a dream…of a future that will never be.

It’s hard to breathe when your throat feels as if it will tear. I cringe under my bed sheets, touching trembling fingertips to my burning neck.

My cheeks feel warm and wet; I’m crying.

But all I can think of is Akihiko’s loving gaze, so tender and heartfelt that it’s sickeningly sweet. Yet it’s beautiful and what I want, desperately…but I already know. And I have known for a long time that that gaze was never meant for me, and never will be as much as I wish and pine and hurt.

I seek these dreams, knowing full well what I’m pulling myself into.

What I’m never prepared for is the crushing loneliness of wanting what’s nearly in my reach, taunting me, testing me, teasing me...




Comments and concrit are super duper appreciated♥
Tags: fanfic, junjou romantica
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