Universe: Junjou Romantica
Fic Type: Ficlet
Word Count: 320
Alt. Link: FF.Net
A/N: A closer look at Akihiko's thoughts in S2 Episode 7/Vol. 8 Act 11.
Warning: Akihiko's POV (first person), the dialogue is credit to Aarinfantasy's translation. Angst.
Summary: Akihiko doesn't mean what he says.
"Maybe you should start looking for your own place to live now."
It's not what I mean. It's not what I mean. But it's something I have to say…before I crush Misaki, before I completely isolate him.
I can't look up at him, whom I know is giving me an expression of mild surprise. I don't want to look at him, not now. I'm afraid of what I'll do…
"Oh, I get it, I get it. Niichan said something to you again, didn't he?" Misaki walks back up to me. "Man, he's so overprotective! Just don't pay him any attention!" He pats stiffly at my arm, feebly trying to comfort me for reasons he's unsure of.
"No," I say clearly. He's looking at me expectantly, waiting for me to say something else, trying to figure out what I'm thinking, I just know it.
"Oh, crap! I'm gonna be so late! Uh, anyway, I'll see you later!" Misaki rushes out, leaving me in the empty doorway to wallow in my own misery.
The silence in the room is loud in my ears.
Misaki is mineminemine, but he's not mine. He's his own person, too. And with this knowledge, it's harder and harder for me to hold back. I can't even stand for him to say someone else's name at times. All I really want is to hold him close and have everyone, Misaki included, know he belongs to me.
But in the end, Misaki will be the one to end up hurt. So maybe, just maybe, I should end this before then? Before Misaki resents me, before he completely hates me for forcing myself on him in the first place.
That…that might be good.
Because I could still support him from afar. Because, for his own sake, he should get away from me before it's too late.
Because I'd rather end it before Misaki can't even stand the sight of me.
A/N: Romantica is rare for me to write~ Hope you enjoyed!
Comments and concrit are very much appreciated ♥